sometimes we all have things we regret in our lives and wish they could have been sooo diffrent ..... im no exeption ive met the most wonderful people and ive torn myself from them gone back on words i swore by said things unimaginable to even me

ive become so strong at saying the things i dont ever wanna say to the last people id ever wanna say them to

girl i promised you my heart i ripped it out my chest and placed it within your embrace and you looked at me and smiled at it

surely my efforts to love you are enough depite anything that may come between us yet so simple it is for others to disrupt this love between us
and yet i cant blame you choosing between 2 loves can be so difficult but you shouldnt be in any position to choose
and with bitter acceptance of the truth what am i left to do
the love you said you'd give is the love you say you cant possibly show

since when were logic and reasoning a part of love? since when did the thoughts of others become our barriors

since when did i become so bitter to walk away from you to frown so heartlessly and watch as u tried to play it cool knowing in your heart you want me to stay but are not willing to say it

you seem to think im here to love you and amire how beautiful you are
im not ....
im here for the love you can return to me the afection you can give
i dont want riches or fame i just want to be one of two people who care deeply for each other
i want to be two that makes sooo much more

what am i to the distance that soon becomes us
are you happy with just becomeing a pain in  my chest a blur in my past
i wanted always to be by your side
why was i so naive to think that i could have a long and lasting when you had never loved before
why was i so foolish to give you my everything so blindly hoping with all my heart we could ignore what the world would say about us
i blame myself as i was weak i should have known better back then even if it was only just yesterday

i blame myself for acting the way i did

closure was a pain in my heart and i suffer for it now

i guess the best thing i can say is thank you for the memories of love